A Letter To You

Thoughts of you consume my mind.  I can’t seem to do anything else.  Different scenes from days gone by.  We parted.  Yet, my love for you still lasts.  I have tried so hard to make myself believe that I did not love you anymore.  I tried to make myself believe that my love had turned to hate.  I tried so hard to forget your face in the faces of another.  Three years later, I sat alone and wondered if you knew I left.  Did you know that I still loved you?  What if for one of us tomorrow did not come and I never got to tell you?  I wrote you a letter.  I told you that my love for you was still as strong as it was in the beginning.  I told you I did not leave you because I wanted another.  I told you that I left you because I could no longer take the pain of watching you leave to go home to another.  Six long years of broken promises that shattered my heart to pieces.  I told you that maybe it was not fair that I expected you to begin your life anew.  Maybe that was not what you wanted to do at your age.    Though, I thought myself and our daughter deserved to have you to ourselves.  After the anger subsided and time healed my pain, I thought it unfair of me to expect you to begin again so I walked away and it’s o.k.  We talked and talked.  You spent the night and as we laid down to sleep with your arms around me.  Silently, I began to cry because your arms around me felt as good as it always did.  I had missed that even more than I knew.  The days that followed felt so good.  Then, I received that phone call from a friend telling me that tragic news.  I was faced with never seeing you ever again.  I prayed for God to allow more time.  I thank God because he did and to our God I am so grateful.  All our problems that angered me in the past suddenly seemed so petty as compared to a world with out you.  Let us make the most of time we have left to get it right this time.  I love you and you love me.  Let us make God proud and be a family with the daughter we created.  If we do not show our daughter, I’m afraid she will never know what it is like to have her mother and father together.  It is our time to live and to love and to give her what she has not seen – a family.  For when you leave this world for good, I know there will never be another.  No one could ever take your place or ever begin to fill your shoes.  Why must we continue to live a lie apart when we know we could be living in love together!

Love Always,

Me